The sunshine feels warm on my skin,
The bird sings her happy song,
There’s a cool breeze,
Its days like these that make you want to stay in winter forever,
Because nothing will ever change,
But you stop appreciating the things you once cherished,
The love for it withers and dies,
And suddenly there’s no laughter anymore,
There’s nothing,
Not one thing,
And you’re not even prepared for it,
And you can’t face it,
And it’s eating you up inside,
Deep inside,
It surfaces in those long minutes before you fall asleep at night,
Every night,
And once you decide what you’re going to do,
That action plan,
Your ticket out of it all,
You suddenly realise,
Is it all worth it, just so you can feel at peace with yourself?
Because if you let them, your friends will forget you.
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I had that moment of realisation today, in class actually. And it saddens me that it's true. It's really true.
I'm now sitting alone in Food Technology. The table's full, they've let another girl take my place (that or she thinks she gets to the seat first).
The saddest thing about this all it that not one of my old friends care, they just let this all pass. My alienating myself from them, sitting along, going through moments when i'm about to cry.
Sorry, I wollow a lot in self pitty.
Enought about that.
I don't really know how to blog.